Away from a big city Life..

I feel like I have a '1028' things running through my mind right now.I love sitting here all alone,switching my thoughts from one to two,and on.. i always had the same feeling when I used to travel on a city train,with an almost empty compartment.I wish to stay at a room alone in Chennai,with all my stuff only...I need to wrk a lot to put the mindset back on to chennai metrolife,the one thing I hate about the city,but still I have to live here.Home feels like heaven,with a neighbourhood of noisy new borns!

I was late,but not that late to be the lost...

I wish i could be the last one to come to you..
May be  when your back at your home,
You won`t understand,what you `ve been through..
Coz  i never told you,how i felt,until i was late

You had a kite,it juz flew off,free with the wind
But i wished for your arms more than the clouds 
The world was upsidedown  around here..
It took time to fix the broken,and  my voice was lost

You came around me,but i didn`t say anything
And I missed the words your eyes said,
I had been in the crowd,but i had noone there for me
You walked away,i was to hold my faith true,but i couldn`t

Here we are in the fields,and the road`s by the side..
Give me a moment,stop this rain on me..
Home is far than it seem,can you walk along? 
And i wish i could be the last one that you save

For you my pretty face ..

I had stories that startd somewhere,of nowhere ..

Some ended someway between,some just goes like they never end ..

I have seen faces that came without a `hello` ..

but they used to leave with a `goodbye` missing ..

Life had been just around a clock,away from life ..

I had my wall of my heart thick .. my eyes didnt see much around ..

I closed my eyes,saw people i had never met ... people i may never meet ..

Then,I saw u .. you had broken in ..

You had your name written,on the walls of my heart

I see the most beautiful of my eyes,when you are around ...

I always had you with all my reasons,if they wer for love ..

You are the most beautiful reason i ever have in my life ..

You have the reasons for my lyf ..

My life was nothing,it wasnt something sometym ...

My heart was little,but heavy ...

You gave me the best part of your care,your life ..

But now i believe that you were just a sweet dream that happend to me ??

I see you everynight i dont sleep bad ..

You come to my eyes everytime i close them tight ..

You are different from the faces i have seen ..

When,i have nothing left to say,nowhere place to go ..

When you stay with me,i feel like ...

Sometimes,i m odd like you.. I m crazy like you are ..

Makes me feel you are made for me ..

And girl,you are my pretty face,forever ..

(This is really the craziest ideas i had recently,i have seen many people who had tried stuff like this,i too had some alternate thinkin` of wastin time!There is no dedication,for no one.No pretty face exists,till now,Nobody suffers!! So `you`,juz dnt think too much after it..!)

Kuch khatti nahi he tho,ye zindagi kya re??

Its only two days left for me at home,before i have to go some places for the part of life i must call just like in `pursuit of happyness` `running for a job`... Its almost half an year over,after my graduation,but to say,'running for the job` part is quiet new for me.I has been the quietest part of my life till now,but now i feel that,it ought to be lil noisy.And i think its high time that i have to get myself out of the commitment with the loneliness i have been enjoying at home.Before this hibernation,home wasn`t this nice for me.Never,i got a feeling all these time,that i have been wasting myself,like someone may say.Still i m sure,i `ll have a regreting period,later on this.I am really happy about,many things that i have found,understood after i had time thinking on them.

Always i `ve been optimistic,sometimes too much of that kind.So this is what i have,(the escapism or whatever others  may say)of what the struggling to find my `gotta-be life supporting system` or the so-called `job`.For me,now i `ve to go knock some doors,check out of some,make decisions..Life should not be always easy. After a time everything `ll to be just some memories,just some kind of `khatti` flavoured part.But thats what i am interested on now,i too need some stories,of my own.It should also have all the life learning process,struggling and the `being tough` part.Do  anyone of  us,`ll remember to remember,about a life if it was too plain,with the same routines and processes,with only changin` the age tag?I bet its hard for some atleast,and for me,it must be totally impossible.There ought  to  have some bumps and humps,that even it gets wrapped by the busy world we create,at times,they help us turning back fast to the place where we come from.A passed out hard time is sweet side memory,not another nightmare.

So now i am goin` for it,`ll see whether i `ve plenty of those what i go for,or an `attitude- change`!!!

Lil sparks,but its an ignition...

After i `ve created this forum,i literaly had nothing to say all these days ,still not much..but a lil..
(for my sister,who just sits somewhere,.....metres away from me!!!!)
I had `pretty bad`number of hits,there were not much people who could afford reading my `stupidity`.Whatever it may be,i just had a hit on my forum,after i had hit her emotionally bad the other day.We fought on a reason,we both thought to be righteous to us.But there was another start,in blogspot(http://aprettybigworld.blogspot.com),and a comment on my post.So for now,i still have my sis,just like i had her before.If i set her feelin` alone,i think i don`t regret on it now.Rather i just left her with her own `lil world`.Its more a noble reason. To say,i felt ` lil world`is a better place than `nowhere`... Like it always had been,i m pulled more to a surrender,but not right now...let me hold on with for `a lil long while` more...And my sis,just keep on going...You have grown up than me,as i just grew up only with my age...

What i missed yesterday ..

Am i losing the alacrity,which i had at my first post?Till now it din`t start running down.There is something which i didn`t say(i was supposed to say!)there.What is `From nowhere to my place`?(my blogs title)To say,i really got it from nowhere...It stayed stable,with me,always after it first came to my mind.But still i don`t remember that `sometime` when it first came to me.Before that,there were many `two-worded` things that didn`t stick much with me.
For now,i feel like,i can more rely on it,until i understand,or it proves,what it exactly is its relevance...

`There was a word in the beginning...`

Always there is a beginning for everything,just like every other thing in my happend,happening in life,this one too has the same trouble with its start.I m lil coonfused,na,i can`t be said so..ya,void...`void` is the right word!I`m void in head of the many things,this `start` deserves.This can`t take the honour of the `words at the beginning` of any great,polished life to be posted.But still it always `ll `ve a life,behind it..a real `my life at times`

I believe that words written could say more emotions of me,naked,more i say,than they are said.
i ain`t no writer,I`ve less been into writing,else it was my scribbling.I had done that pretty alot,in many places where it could rest peacefully,harming nobody,intruding no lives.
Some(many,most!!) of them where really hopeless, which may have been possibly the next best thing(may be better!)to cyanide for those poor souls who had just tried reading them.
Even this could be the big daddy of them!

Right now i `m not into saying much about the `abouts` of the individual i m..(That`s on the way ..!)...not about the inspiration i got for this... or what could be here lateron in here...
But i say expect anything mad,crazy that could possibly come out of a normal mediocre head.
And anything `nuts` that happens to me,is happening to me,or around me ..